Wednesday, April 27, 2011

给啊嬤的话

啊嬤,不知不觉你已经离开有十年了~在天上过得好吗???最近天气变了,有没有记得好好在那里照顾自己呢??抱歉今年清明我没有去看你,没帮你打扫你的家,没在你家陪你聊聊天。姑姑们都说会帮我传达我要说的话给你,你收到我的心意了吗?你不会怪我的对不对?我在这里很乖哦~我有好好努力读书,我有尽孙女的责任,有努力地照顾啊公哦~我常常都会提醒他老人家不可以驾快车,驾驶要小心哦~啊嬤,啊公也有乖乖哦~你要好好把阿公留我的身边好不好?我也有努力地乖乖地听爸爸妈妈的话哦~我真的有乖乖哦~

啊嬤,还记不记得你走的那天你对我说的那些话?你说:“莲,你要努力读书,要乖乖的哦,将来要赚钱养你啊公和你爸妈哦~"你记得吗??我一个字都没有忘记哦~~当时你还带着笑容,我却泪留满面,很努力告诉自己我要让你知道我很勇敢,我不哭~~可是~~到最后我还是做不到~

啊嬤~你明白这些年我有多想你吗~??当我无助时,受委屈时,第一时间只想到“如果啊嬤在,那该有多好”我想拨电话给你,但是我知道我永远拨不通天国的号码~我永远不能跟你诉苦,对你撒娇~我永远无法再听到你慈祥的声音~我唯一能做到的是,我努力争取,努力做到我当初答应过你的事~啊嬤~你看到了吗~??你的孙女真的长大了哦~真正地踏入了师训的生涯,已经完成一半我对你的承诺了~

啊嬤~有时候我会在想,如果当我想见到你的时候,就赶紧睡觉,然后就能梦到你的话,那该有多好~我真的很想很想见见你~十年了~真的十年了~如果你还在世,现在每年拍全家福时你一定笑得最灿烂最慈祥的那一个~大家常常聚在一起聊天时,都很不经意的提到你,因为你永远都在大家的心中,不管过了多久都好~

啊嬤~我们可不可以有个约定~下辈子我再做你的孙女好不好~??给我一个机会孝顺你好不好~???

啊嬤~这辈子我不知道还有没有机会和你相遇,但有一点我确定的是,我对你永久的感恩~<3

谢谢你,啊嬤


Monday, April 25, 2011

T.T* REGRET *T.T

it was a monday morning and then as usual i wake up at 7am to take my bath~~at that time,there were a lot of people inside the bathroom~!!I keep wondering"should i go downstairs so tat i can finish taking my bath faster?" At last,i DIDN'T~!!!!and it's my FIRST REGRET~!!

well~~reaching class with a good mood cuz early in the morning meet my "darling" and he give me the sweetest smile from far~haha~but~~when i reach class,saw someone sit alone and seem like no mood and show a BLACK FACE to me as if i owned him/her money~!!well,it's the SECOND REGRET i care about him/her~!!

reaching hostel with a tired face,need to wash all my clothes and do my everyday routine~~i wonder y my life is like this~!!but~well,i can accept it now~

At night,going to pasar malam with my dearest ting ling,eliza,yling and Ong~~it's the THIRD REGRET tat i bought a new clothes again and it cost me RM23 although it is not reli expensive~~but~still regret for buying it~~huh~~i wonder y~~!!!!!!!

WOW~!!!whole day regret here and thr~!!
I PROMISE I WILL THINK CAREFULLY BEFORE MAKING ANY DECISION NEXT TIME


As an ending for today~i would like to recommended one chinese song for all of u~especially AZHIR~~^^
符琼音——很久没哭了

Sunday, April 24, 2011

lazy sunday

it's quite a bad sunday morning~i woke up and realise tat i got an fever~!!wat a terrible morning tat make me need to CANCEL my jog in MENGKUANG DAM!!!hate it~sorry to THAM and AZHIR who willing to go with me at first~huhu~next week hopefully we can go together~~whole class will be having fun in MENGKUANG DAM~^^well~~after eating some medicine,sleep till 12.30pm~wake up and realise tat it had been one week i didnt tidy and clean my room~~so~at last,make a decision to clean it TODAY~!!!!

BEFORE CLEANING



AFTER CLEANING




haha~~my room is pretty and cute now~^^SATISFIED with it~^^


before i END my blog today~i saw something nice and i like~gonna share it here now~^^

YOUR SMILE
I love the way you smile
to see it i'd walk a mile
i have to stare at you
no one smiles like you do
everytime you smile i melt
a feeling i never felt
i just can't bear
to sit and stare
your smile is one of a kind
a smile i keep in my mind
i love the way u smile
to see it i'd walk a mile
beyonce-crazy in love

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Memory Of Us

 best friend forever~^^
 suk jing and meiyee
 jing and me~^^
princess frog's sweetest smile
another shoot~^^feel nice~
meiyee and me
 cute~^^
take photo inside toilet~^^haha~
 again~^^
 food in KIMGARY
 ting ling and oliver's lunch~
 jing's lunch~
 meiyee's lunch

in PIZZA HUT^^

mushroom soup~^^

it had been a long time since we met last time~I keep planning and planning to meet with u but owes FAIL just because i m really BUSY with all the activities in IPG~wat a pity frog and U~ Finally,we did meet with each others today~with our dearest friend MEI YEE and my friends here(Ting Ling,Eliza,Yling)~I am really happy and enjoy my time with u~I appreciate every moment with u and i remember all the things i did with u~finally,thx to ting ling,eliza,yling,meiyee and U for giving me such a wonderful day~^^"YOU ARE MY FRIEND,IT ALWAYS BE!!"



Another favourite song from Beyonce~^^"LISTEN" recommended by Azhir~^^

Thursday, April 21, 2011

又是一个星期五~^^

又是一个美丽的星期五~
哈哈~
除了睡觉,我并不知道要做什么~
最近<吴若权>的书也都没有在更新了~T.T
想想自己又好像很久没有出去运动运动了~身体极为不舒服的~
星期日tasik mengkuang是去定了!!!!!
哈哈~^^
今天讲师要求站在班上前面讲自己觉得最喜欢的东西和最重要的东西,而我~
到最后看了看,决定讲手上从未脱下来的戒指~
大家都觉得是情人送的,而我就只说:“It is given by someone special in my life"
哈哈哈哈哈哈啊哈哈~
我到最后依然没有公布答案~但其实是<黄家二千金>送的~
其实~还真的是someone special in my life~试问有几个妹妹酱可爱会送戒指给姐姐的~~还是lucky ring来的~~哈哈哈哈哈~不好意思让班上所有人误会到~我想说:“是你们自己想很多而已!!!!!!!!!”哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~
今天很乖因为没有出街哦~因为要不眠~好久没睡到好觉了~T.T
有时我会在计划~~等我有空的时候我一定要睡足三天三夜~可是越计划,每天就睡得越少~不知道为什么~!!!
对了~最近都迷在Beyonce的<If i were a boy>歌词很有意思~!!!!!如果有一天我变成男生,我一定要做男生可以做的事!就像之前每次我想玩Need To Speed Underground 2,然后班上的男生,尤其是我所谓的darling,他就一直说:“拜托你不要玩可以吗~??你应该要玩那些扮家家酒或是barbie之类的东西,不然以后我们的家会垮掉~!!!"天啊~~哪门子的话,女生就一定要这样哦~拜托啦~~也不想想那些game几闷~!!!!没有什么东西比刺激的游戏好玩~!!尤其是赛车~~!!!Oh Yes~!!!
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~!! <3

最后送给大家If I Were A Boy,慢慢欣赏里面带出的意思~^^

余光中《母难日》

第一次开部落格,并不知道要写什么,所以先介绍一篇感动人心的诗歌~^^
今生今世,
我最忘情的哭声有两次,
一次在我生命的开始,
一次在你生命的告终,
第一次我不会记得是听你说的,
第二次你不会晓得我说也没用,
但两次哭声的中间啊!
有无穷无尽的笑声,
一遍一遍又一遍,
回荡了整整三十年,
你都晓得我都记得。

快乐的世界啊
当初我们见面
你迎我以微笑
而我答你以大哭
惊天,动地

悲哀的世界啊
最后我们分手
我送你以大哭
而你答我以无言
关天,闭地

矛盾的世界啊
不论初见或永别
我总是对你以大哭
哭世界始于你一笑
而幸福终于你闭目

每年到母难日
总握着电话筒
很想拨一个电话
给久别的母亲
只为了再听一次
一次也好
催眠的磁性母音

但是她住的地方
不知是什么号码
何况她已经睡了
不能接我的电话
「这里是长途台
究竟你要
接哪一个国家?」

我该怎么回答呢?
天国,是什么字头?
地府,有多少区号?
那不耐的接线生
卡挞把线路切断
留给我手里一截
算是电线呢还是若断若连的脐带
就算真的接通了
又能够说些什么
「这世界从你走后
变得已不能指认
唯一不变的只有
对你永久的感恩