Bitter Pill to Swallow

it's a long time tat i didnt update my blog~feel very stress~and~~reli upset+disappointed~
i m stress~reli stress~but~~when i saw my future roomate,who is killing herself with all the chinese books and house problem,i keep silent~~i knw~she need my help~~I knw she wish me to stand beside her,lend her my shoulder~~i knw she need me cuz i reli dun wan to c her stress until i cant recognise her one day~

Another thing abt classmates~erm~~how do i need to start with it???Mayb i should start like this~
actually thr is a small problem and conflict between two friends in the class~But~because i use my bahasa ibunda(in his mind,it's call bahasa asing)to advise another fren so tat he wont get angry with tat small matter,i had been blame for saying his bad words using Bahasa Asing~~ok la~~fine~~it's my fault for using my bahasa ibunda to say something tat make u misunderstanding~but~~~one thing u should knw~it's my bahasa ibunda,i hope u understand it~~i m nt only learn how to write,how to speak in chinese,but~i learn my culture~try to imagine tat one day ur bahasa ibunda had been said by others tat it's BAHASA ASING~how would u feel~???surely i think u will angry,right?cuz it's ur culture~

I knw tat everyone have their own emotion~everybody is busy with exam~~but~~do u ever think tat if one day ppl moody in front u~and simply angry u like this~???would u feel angry with it~???U did experient it last time~~So,i m sure tat u knw tat feel~I understand u r stress~~and~i never mind it~~cuz i knw~u r my fren~~i should understand u~

But~~seems like everything had goes the other way round~~the thing tat u write in our group and facebook,reli make me feel heartless to u~I had try my best to comfort myself for not mind all abt this,but~~i still cant~~cuz~~i reli treat u as my true friend~~as i say~"You are my fren,it always be"Actually i dun reli understand wat r u thinking abt~~cuz this juz a small thing~u r able to make it as big as everyone feel sad abt it~~do u knw tat ur fren never angry abt u~??he even make a photo for our class~~and he never forget abt u~~but~~once he taip "friendship forever" in tat photo,u leave the group~????do u ever think abt our feeling~???when u spend ur time moody and as if everyone make u unhappy,do u ever knw tat we care abt u??well~~~~i think i dun need all that answer at all now~~~i reli sabar until i cant sabar now and force to write all my feeling here~~i dun mind u read it or not~and dun mind tat will u angry or nt after this~~i only want to tell u tat i never STOP treating u as my fren although u owes moody recently~~once again i should explain to u tat"忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空" is juz a idioms in chinese who teach us b patient to do everything~we r nt talking bad abt u with ur BAHASA ASING~~tat's all i want to share~~